Need a daily and weekly schedule...BAD!!!
Just can't seem to get it together. Right now I'm going to school- 2 classes and 2 labs with a 14-month old who is now walking and still nursing and we have NO DAYCARE nor a reliable support system. That is supposed to be changing soon but in the meantime I am really sleep-deprived, my health is failing and I'm desperate to get us on a better schedule. I keep defaulting to a 2am bedtime because it's late at night when I seem to be the most mentally alert. My baby falls asleep around midnight. This is so not good for us and yet I sleep through the 4 alarms I set each day and then we wake up at the same time. I have no time to myself. I constantly lose track of time and we are late everywhere. And not just a few minutes late, we are often even hours later than I try to plan. We have food allergies so I have to make all our food- no dairy/no wheat. No dishwasher. I'm too impatient with my daughter and too exhausted to enjoy her. That makes me feel really sad and guilty. Everything is falling apart. I need help.